me: i should get in the shower
*2 hours later someone else starts the shower*
me: o hmy god fuck you i was JUST about to get in there
Ah, so check it out right?
I’ve tried every approach to living and I’ve tried, tried it all. I haven’t tried everything, but I’ve tried every approach. Sometimes you have to try everything to get the approach the same, but…
I tried it all, I bought a bunch of stuff and went: “eh, I don’t like that”, I kinda came in and out that a couple of times. I thought I would shut myself off, I thought maybe that’s cool. Maybe that’s what you have to do to be a genius, is you have to be mad. So if you get mad before the word genius, then maybe you can make genius appear, right?
That doesn’t work either. And I’m in a good place, I’ve paced myself pretty well. I’m thirty, I’ve seen some cool stuff. I made a lot of stuff happen for myself.
I made a lot of stuff happen for myself, right. That’s a really cool sentence when you’re in your 20’s, I made it happen for myself. But all that means is that I’ve just somehow or another found another way to synthesize love or synthesize soothing. Or.. You can’t get that. And what I’m saying is that I’ve messed with all the approaches, except for one and it’s gonna sound really corny but that’s just love. That’s just love.
I’ve done everything in my life that I’ve wanted to do except just give and feel love for my living. And I don’t mean like: Roman-candle-firework-Hollywood-hot-pink-love. I mean like: I-got-your-back-love!
I don’t need to hear “I love you”. You guys love me, I love you. We got that down. But some of the people who will tell you they love you, the same people who’re gonna last just have your back.
So, I’m gonna experiment with this love-thing. Giving love, feeling love. I know it sounds really corny but it’s the last thing I got to check out before I check out.
@johnmayer: “Friend of the Devil for pre-going-out piano.”
reminder that it’s 2014 and you no longer need to look at, wear, or own any galaxy print items. good night
Secret Julian Casablancas and The Voidz show at Shea Stadium